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2008-11-09
机关枪少男
睡觉,始终没有收敛。
看篮球比赛,火箭队赢了。
上网,看和Kenou共同完成的《桥》,心中一阵得意。
听歌,Belle & Sebastian和Cardigans
晚上想去一个人喝酒
反复对自己说
生日快乐
翻了下日记,找到2006年生日那天的日记,转眼居然都两年了,两年前我的日记更新很频繁,总有炫耀不完的音乐和电影,也总有发不完的情,还总有散不尽的一身文骚气。从做一个伪文艺青年到转型成为一个半吊子知识分子,再到现在沦落为一名意气风发,面具多多的新生代职场男性,其中可谓坎坷心酸,其中所历不亚千红一哭万艳同悲。我记得豆瓣有个小组叫人际交往障碍,其实这种症状我就叫它社会官能性功能障碍。面对老板不举,面对客户不射,面对办公室办桌台隔断相邻处那位与川岛和津实颇有几分相似的公司同事却又难以自已的上"吐"下泻,其中况味真是万言难尽。
不过还好,一切都过去了,风平浪静,我不需要到体育场去跟周哥哥一起变夹着嗓子唱“哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我“边自慰,也不需要包里揣着永远只剩两根中南海的空烟盒,站在小酒馆舞台的前端一边看乐队挥汗如雨,一边转头看摇青们挥屑如雨。我很庆幸我在去小酒馆前上网好好研习了一下POGO MOSH的手势,脚法,走位,甩头力度的掌控,跳水时机的选择等教程,这让我非常成功的就打进了那些貌似激愤,实则淳朴憨厚的摇滚青年阵营。当然我也渐渐发现,参加一场摇滚演出还是得精心装扮一下的。铅笔裤匡威布鞋修身小POLO是极佳的装扮,当然如果你觉得便宜货剪裁不能充分体现你傲人的身材的话,也可以尝试回力海魂衫梅花混搭。所谓根源性的,这其实也是一场争奇斗妍的派对,互相观察勾兑相约相伴相睡。音乐?Who Care?
在YOUTUBE上看过某只韩国噪音摇滚的现场视频,现场居然有人跳起了DISCO。
2007年生日我没有写日记,忘记了是为什么、
懒惰还他妈的需要理由吗?! 这话是每次早上我上班迟到时老板厉声质问我时就会在我内心四处冲撞的雄性麋鹿。
权当解释此过失。
生日是在康定过的,其实是以为工作才去的。拖着重感冒的身躯,经过五个小时的车程,穿过二郎山洞后就明显感觉耳朵没对,一下车就感觉这么耳朵是闷的,头也是胀的,回来一检查就是以为感冒引发的耳积水。
康定除了两三个风景区外,比如海螺沟,温泉公寓可以偶遇日本妹妹(去玩的日本人据说蛮多),其他地方毫无意思。满目疮痍,到处都是修水库水电站,挖石材铲河沙的,县城周边一些山直到山腰树林前些年就已经被砍伐殆尽,沿着光秃冷峭的石壁在318国道一路疾驰会看见满地的石块,一些危险度比较高的都被拿网给网住了,是为避免大面积滑坡。
晚上住在了姑扎镇的康定师专 ,选了一间靠着大渡河的房间。虽然这些年因为水利设施的修建水量已经减少了很多,但大渡河的气势似并没有所减弱,在那些呈带状延伸开来的村镇中,在以河居观念为主的人们心中,它依旧带着不可消灭的威严气势,如神一样扑面而来,稍有闪失,顷刻覆灭。
虽然同行的想安静睡觉,我还是悄悄开了一点窗子,让河流的声音透进来,我一直闭目倾听,直到身体失重一般沉沉睡去,我的梦率领着百万金戈铁马亦或是百万金戈铁马夹带着梦中的我挥师东进,一路策马奔腾,枪脊紧握,恰如一部优秀的公路电影,配乐淡入“喔...喔..喔.喔.喔 喔...喔..喔.喔.喔 喔...喔..喔.喔.喔 喔...喔..喔 当山峰没有棱角的时候 当河水不再流”,接着一组连续的蒙太奇闪回,倒插叙性爱的群像,最后以一场大屠杀结束。
Cult Film。
中国式Cult Film。绝对的。
原来今年那天也是火箭的比赛,可惜输了,我都不咋看火箭队比赛了,我只是觉得他们买的球员越来越丑了,而且球风也不好看,打法又老实巴交的,实在没观众缘。
不过没关系,我现在喜欢看鹰队。
没关系,我是假的,赝品!

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/bC9V61Cc0LA/ 贴不过来了
In the morning I am a recluse, lost in memories
Ideal situations and convulsions
I'm never in and I can't remember
They built portholes for Bono, so he could gaze
Out across the bay and sing about mountains
Maybe. You are what you own in this land
You can be King and it all depends on the view and what you can see
And around here nobody tells me what to do anymore
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Why say words that I do not mean
They only serve to amuse, ridicule and destroy,
Hardly ever to teach
I hit you for the first time today
I didn't mean it
It just happened
You wouldn't let me go to the phone,
You wanted to make love and I did not
Now I know the distance between us
Christ we weren't even fighting, I was just annoyed
Silence and you started to cry, that really hurt
You said, yeah and you thought you knew me
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Just you and me
Just you and me
Consider this as the wine takes hold
And sinks into your veins
I try to force it but it's not there
Love gives you comfort
And comfort makes you dim
She's in the kitchen
Putting beads in her hair
It all came out tonight
The queen of drugs broke down and cried
'Cause she'd been shagging her best friends guy
She knew the form, she knew the lie
She wasn't shy and she refused to try
That's why I'm gazing out of portholes
And I'm wondering why
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Just you and me









